August went by way too quickly. I had so many plans and goals that I didn't end up doing. I really wish I had tried a bit harder or something. I just keep finding myself swallowed up by stress and circumstances and it makes me feel a bit helpless.
Enough about that though. I enjoyed the ending of summer. Did I listen to a lot of Lorde and Lana del Ray and act super angsty about it... maybe. Life's more fun if you're dramatic about everything. Which I always am.
I wasn't super productive but I did find a lot of new music and obsessed over all my old favorites. I've also been in a super artistic mood that I'm starting to suspect isn't a mood, but just my current state. My new love is watercolors and I might be getting a drawing pad so that I can dabble in digital art. I really want to do something with art, I'm just not sure what.
I love how aimless and unsure I sound. I am setting goals and planning I swear. I'm 25 now I can't keep living my life the way I have, but with that decision comes a lot of stress and questions.
I'm working and I'm praying about it. I'm trying to allow myself to relax a bit, take things as they come and not try to do every little thing.
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| My Best Cake ever!!! |
I'm trying to savor things, eat cake, dance in the rain. I have plenty of time to grow up.
Don't be to hard on yourself, when I graduated at 26 I wandered aimlessly for the next several years. It wasn't until last year that I finally began to find myself. You should definitely take joy in life especially in your young and single years. Still have goals for the future (career wise at least), but don't forget to enjoy every moment, the good and the bad.
ReplyDeleteThanks Ivy! I'm working on it. I'm trying to remember that, there really isn't a time limit on anything and I want to enjoy my 20's. Definitely, I need goals to survive. XD
DeleteI won't, thanks!!!
Hey, you got this, Skye! I’ll be praying for you. :)
ReplyDelete"Life’s more fun if you’re more dramatic about everything." Can I make this my life motto, please and thank you? XD
Hope you have an awesome September! <3
Thanks Nicole! I appreciate it. :)
DeleteYes, it really is though. XD
You too! <3
Happy Birthday, Skye!!! Life is hard, and there are a ton of decisions to make, but you'll figure it out. <333
ReplyDeleteThank you!!! It is, too many XD Hope so! <333
DeleteThis sound like me. I'm still trying to "get it," and I'm 29. I told my mom that it wasn't until the last few years that I really got my brain/self/power and back from the nuclear bomb that went off in my head as a teen. Sometimes it's just like that for some people.
ReplyDeleteI graduated college in 4 years, but two years "late" and with a "useless" degree. And then I floundered, and then went back to college online while still floundering. I've been temping since college.
If you are environmentally sensitive (to noise, high-paced jobs, mean people, job boredom, cleanliness, etc.) like I was, make a comfortable job environment your priority. I feel like I was pressured to take anything that came, and well, I became mistress of quitting. So, that is tip one, make sure you are comfortable, if you won't stay, it doesn't matter what the job looks like in terms of a career path or any other typical grown-up standard. The other thing is I spend money all the time, makes it hard to be independent with no savings, no emergency fund. That is what I most regret. I finally found a job (still temp but possibly I can become permanent eventually) at a place where I don't want to quit every hour of every day (I'm barely exaggerating). But I'd be closer to independence with an emergency and savings.
I'm starting to think no one really has it together, or their just pretending too. XD Glad I'm not the only one though. It is!
DeleteAt least you went to college, I think that is impressive just in itself. And temping is good! You're getting experience.
That's great advice, Thank you! I'm glad that you found a place you liked! I really want my independence, I've been trying to work on that this year.
Happy birthday!
ReplyDeleteYeah, I know what you mean about life. I feel the same. -_- I'm actually looking around right now for a second job. I spent the whole morning/afternoon finding copy editor positions, and then I pooped out and haven't applied to any yet. XD I guess I should do that today and tomorrow?
Love the photos! You're awesome!
Thanks!
DeleteHope that goes well. You can do it!
Thank you! XD
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! <333
ReplyDelete*has listened to 400x Lux way too many times lately* XD
I understand that struggle. :P It's so cool how high your creativity has been, though!! You are a beautiful artist and you're going to go places with that, I just know it. <3
THANKS LILA!! <333
DeleteAh, I love that one. XD
Yeah, it sucks. Yes, that's been the one positive thing. That means so much!!! *Hugs*
Thanks! <3
"Life's more fun if you're dramatic about everything." TRUUUUUTH. Literally me. XD
ReplyDeleteI feel you so hard and trying to figure things out. And then I remember...I'm not 50. It's OKAY to not have this clear, direct path in your 20s. Sometimes I think we believe life is actually shorter than it is. I always feel like there's this HUGE rush to get things done and get married and have this ginormous career or whatever. I'm constantly thinking, "I'm almost 30 and I'm not even published yet!!!" And just...so? My life doesn't end when I turn 30. XDD And truthfully, these quieter years have been a HUGE blessing to me as I've learned so much about myself and life and God. I honestly wouldn't trade them for the world. So do be patience with yourself. 25 is still so, so young! I know God's got some awesome years ahead of you. Don't feel like you have to rush them. <3
Also, sitting on the floor eating a whole cake with one of your favorite character's face on it for your 25th birthday is WINNING at life in my book!
XD Right?!
DeleteThat's a good thing to remember. We're young, we're figuring it out. We do! I had that moment too, and it really doesn't matter. XD They are a blessing. My mom sometimes regret that she didn't keep sometime to herself, she got married young. Me either! I'll try. It is! I hope he does! <3 I won't!
It was incredibly therapeutic! Thanks!!!
It's been sort of a stressful month for me too. Life's hard. Have a nice September!
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I'm sorry to hear that, hope it gets better for you! It is.
DeleteYou too!
Happy Birthday!! I will be praying that you experience clarity and peace...you have so many talents, and all will be well in time. <3
ReplyDelete"Life’s more fun if you’re more dramatic about everything." --> WORDS OF TRUTH. XD
Thank you!! I appreciate that! Thank you so much! <3
DeleteIsn't it though! XD
Happy (belated) birthday! I *love* that cake!
ReplyDeleteThanks Kara! It was amazing!
Deletedramatic girls (as long as they aren't hateful) are the best girls ;)
ReplyDeletealso, I feel that around birthdays, life is always more angsty than normal.
That cake photo is a gem. Always keep it.
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Right, definitely not hateful too tired for that. ;)
DeleteIt's so weird, but yes.
I will!
That's a fab cake, and im not even in that fandom as of yet.
ReplyDeleteThanks! You should, it's amazing.
DeleteHappy late birthday!!! :D I'm not even in that fandom, but that is a fine-looking cake!
ReplyDeleteI definitely feel you on having all these plans and goals, and then circumstances happen and stress happens and none of the goals happen, and you're just kind of wondering if you should have tried harder or if you even could have tried harder. Or at least that's where I am right now. :p I'm trying to learn that seeking God about my future and then working on whatever I can do are themselves the best plans and to not stress over the rest of it. Not easy, but maybe we'll learn it together. :)
Hope you're doing well!
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Thanks Alexa! :D Isn't it!!!
DeleteIt's a rough place to be in. Same, it's hard but worth it I think.
Good idea, it's always better to have a friend.
You too!
Oh my gosh, I'm commenting so late but.....Happy (Very Late) Birthday! Mmmm, cake.
ReplyDeleteI'll definitely be praying for you, but hopefully you'll have a good next few months.
Also, random, but did anyone ever tell you that you look a little like Natalia Cordova-Buckley?
No worries! Thank you so much! It was really good.
DeleteThanks, I did!
No, actually! I can see a bit of resemblance though.
:D
It definitely looks good.
ReplyDeleteAw, I'm glad to hear that.
Yeah, I think it's the eyes. Wait, so do you watch Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D?
:D
DeleteProbably. I've seen a few episodes, but I have so many shows to watch that I always get side tracked. It's good!
Ugh, Blogger published before I was finished.
ReplyDeleteI think it's the eyes and face shape. You're both very beautiful so maybe that's it.
Yeah it does that. XD
DeleteThank you!